I knew you’d never grow old Laser, it was always something I knew about you; you would never be an old dog, & oh how I tried to keep you safe...
I wasn’t ready to lose you just yet.
It never was about my schedule. You always had your own plans, your own life. I’ve never had a dog like you before; you never needed me, but chose to be w/me.
You were my clown.
My protector.
Who will make me laugh now? Who will protect me?
How could you leave me so soon?
As I held you & looked into your eyes, I could see you were going. There was something on the other side that was calling to you. A new adventure. I saw it in your eyes & felt it in my heart. You were leaving me. In that moment, I knew. I bowed my head down & accepted what I felt had been written in our book from the start. We’d reached that chapter where you were going to leave. I kissed you good bye & selfishly asked you to please stay. But knew in my heart you couldn’t. I understand.
I love you & will miss you. Happy hunting buddy.
Some animals & people are bigger than life. That’s Laser. His personality, his spirit was so large it was tangible. If you are lucky enough to be touched by such a special creature, you know, inherently that this experience is a gift & will not last. I knew this with Laser. Almost from the day I bought him home. I knew our time together was limited. So, we lived life to the fullest. He was like an angel. A angel of good will & comedy. No matter what was going on in my life, there was always a bright side. He lead me to see that, usually w/much laughter. Even the night he left me, moments b/f we had our evening ‘love fest’; me laying on the couch next to him, while he stretched out exposing his tummy for me to rub & looking back at me w/that goofy grin. Then leaping up & bounding from couch to floor to couch, laughing & kissing me, making me Laugh out loud.
